Tila Tequila

How to forgive myself and move on?

This is a really messy situation…..I’m in the process of a divorce. I met someone within this time that I really clicked with…my soon to be ex husband and I are separated we have a minor child. One day the ex came by to pick up our child and brought her back the next day..he calls me and asked if I’m sleeping with someone I told him no and its nothing that I will discuss with him. He said you are a liar and went on and on with nasty name calling. Come to find out that he planted voice recorders in my home, I had male company the night before and the stbeh heard things that he wished he hadn’t. That’s what he gets…I feel bad that he had to stoop that low..but that’s not the problem…the problem is that I did not tell the guy that I was seeing about this hidden recording situation. I was being selfish and I didn’t know how to tell him that the stbeh was pscychotic. He did find out by going thru my text messages that the stbeh sent about the recording. Needless to say the guy ended the relationship which hurt like hell because he just introduced me to his parents. Looking back I see that I was better off saying something but how? I made a mistake I miss him so much. I’m having a hard time with this. I just want to move on with my life with a lesson learned. But I have to forgive myself for keeping this from him. He said I broke trust by withholding this..any insight from others is greatly appreciated.